Why
have
I
been
struggling
with
depression
for
so
many
years?
Medications
don't
seem
to
help
and
hundreds
of
hour
of
counseling
have
not
helped
(up
to
now).
Where
does
this
fear
of
not
being
good
enough
come
from,
who
set
the
standards?
Where
does
the
statement,
"TO
THINE
OWN
SELF
BE
TRUE"
come
from?
Many
years
ago
I
told
a
very
close
friend
tha
you
had
to
love
yourself
first, before
you
could
love
anyone
else.
Practice
what
you
preach.
My
goal
for
today
is
to
love
myself
and
really
mean
it,
even
if
it
is
just
for
one
minute,
or
ten
minutes
and
then
I
am
going
to
work
on
expanding
this
to
days,
weeks,
months,
and
years.
For
the
first
time
in
my
life,
I
am
doing
this
because
I
want
to
and
I
am
doing
it
for
myself.
Not
because
anyone
else
said
I
had
to.
From
this
day
forward
I
am
going
to
work
on
finding
out
who
I
really
am
and
who
I
truly
want
to
be.
There
are
not
going
to
be
anymore
feelings
stuffed
because
of
the
fear
of
finding
out
who
I
real
want
to
be.
As
I
am
working
on
this,
it
sounds
like
I
have
not
had
a
good
life,
but
the
truth
is
that
there
have
been
many
great
gifts.
And
my
life
has
been
spared
many
times
for
some
reason
and
now
I
am
really
going
to
work
on
finding
my
purpose.
This
is
the
start
of
day
one
and
if
feels
good.
I
am
going
to
live
for
today.
Thank
you
for
being
there
when
I
needed
you.
