Family,
Yesterday
I
met
with
my
case
worker
and
she
was
able
to
give
me
my
CD4
count,
which
is
817,
and
my
CD3
count
which
is
also
817...
However
they
didn't
have
my
viral
load
in
yet...
so
today
she
called
me
back
and
it
was
108,000
and
she
mentioned
that
we
need
to
work
on
getting
that
down...
she
said
that
if
I
wanted
to
be
aggressive
that
I
could
get
it
down
to
undetectable...
Which
is
exactly
what
I
want...
Last
night
while
reading
things
on
poz.com,
webMD,
the
body,
and
from
here...
my
CD4
count
didn't
sound
very
good...
yet
after
talking
to
a
few
people,
I'm
not
so
anxious
as
I
was
last
night...
Which
lead
to
only
getting
3
hours
of
sleep,
and
the
night
before
I
only
got
2
hours
of
sleep...
This
lack
of
sleep
in
dragging
me
down...
Today
while
trying
to
work,
I
feel
asleep
while
at
my
computer...
I
called
my
doctor
and
asked
if
he'd
change
my
meds
and
he
wants
me
to
come
in
for
another
office
visit
and
charge,
so
that
he
can
see
if
he
wants
to
make
any
changes...
When
I
first
saw
him,
he
was
ok
with
me,
asking
about
my
dating
practices,
and
wanted
to
know
if
my
girlfriend
was
on
the
pill...
when
I
told
him
no,
he
suggested
that
I
rethink
this
issue,
then
when
i
told
him
that
I
was
gay
and
was
dating
a
man,
he
started
talking
down
to
me
and
treating
me
as
if
I
was
some
dirty
nasty
faggot...
So
I
don't
trust
this
guy,
nor
is
he
very
accomodating...
When
I
called
to
have
him
change
my
meds,
which
was
only
about
5
days
from
having
gone
in
for
the
orginal
visit,
they
told
me
it
would
be
Feb
22nd
before
I
could
get
in
to
see
the
doctor....
Hell,
I
could
be
dead
by
then
if
I
wasn't
working
on
calming
and
relaxing
skills...
So
I'm
working
at
finding
a
gay
friendly
doctor..
I'm
working
hard
at
staying
away
and
since
I
don't
know
how
long
this
will
last,
I'm
gonna
signoff
and
hit
the
hay....
I
pray
that
you're
lives
are
as
blessed
as
you
have
blessed
me...
Tchau,
Lonny
