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"Dying Inside"
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Mood: Sad
Date: Jan. 26, 2008
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I've recently went and was tested and my rapid test came back positive... My boyfriend that I was dating for the last 7 months, thinks I knew that I was positive and want trying to infect him and has pushed me away and now I want to DIE... I live here alone and I'm dying inside... I LOVE him and feel such guilt for being positive and possibly infecting him too... I'm trying hard to find a reason to live and yet I only hurt.. I want the pain to stop... He won't talk to me and says it's for both our good... Seeing this I don't see a reason to live... I wish I knew what Keith Ledgend took and I'd go... I need someone to talk to... Chat online with that might help...





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January 27, 2008, 10:58 am

Hi my name is Trippy and I have been hiv poz for 17 years. Im not saying its been easy but with todays medicines you can live with this illness for a long time. As far as your boyfriend thinking you tryed to infect him , thats his problem and you now need to focus on yourself and your mental, physical health. There are all kinds of sites that explain about the illness and the meds.. one good one is called www.thebody.com and it has answers to alot of questions. There are some awesomepeople on this site who also will help with any questions you may have. i wish you the best and send many blessing to you...

If you ever want to talk , my shoulder and ear are available...

hugs from trippy cal



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From: rainman
January 27, 2008, 7:22 am
I know exactly how you feel, I just found out in October that I was posittive and according to numbers for quite sometime. I have gone back to four years of partners not to find out who gave it to me but so they could get tested as well I never would want to be the one that passed on this virus to kill someone definitly not intenionanly. Your boyfriend is angry and thats good it means he has real feelings for you I hope he has been tested and then retested at 3 and 6 months. But as I have found out there are people living very long full lives with very little interruption to there daily schedules. My doctor has a saying and I wish I took it seriously before "NO GLOVE-NO LOVE" and then you still can have a healthy sexual relationship also. Life can and should continue. This is just a speed bump. At somepoint it will get better I just don't know when. Each one of us has and will have a reason to really fight what were going through to make a differance in the world. We didn't ask for it was simply were thrust upon us by someone who didn't know they were positive. And maybe that is are purpose to make sure people know that just cause were safe doesn't mean everyone is and until they no for sure they must wear the raincoat. Be condsiderate of your boyfreind eventually he will either deal with it or not but you can always find a freind on here who will be there for you. 

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