By: whitelake
Mood: Lonely
Date: May 03, 2013
Music: None

its been a hetic day,but i"m still here to come home to my kids. my knee right down are hurting knowing i was never a person that likes milk i am thinking my bone feels brittle and thinking the meds can take away the bone marrow.I wish i know to use to help.been on meds since 2006,My ex husband was bisexual and i never knew until he died in 2002 then i had my denial then i got up my courage and ask my brother to go with me for a test .two weeks later he confess a was more devastated more than i.I educated my family and best friend on hiv.almost all of my fam will migrate soon.and i"m trusting god i wouldn"t be alone.this is my first blog .wanna thank you all for being here for me love.



May 7, 2013, 7:01 am

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From: jenwho
May 4, 2013, 11:26 am

You aren't alone..Wow, your story reminds me of mine, only I found out in 1990-meds since 1994 give or take ---my memory tends to slow with aging--I was 21 when I was told, devasted and destroyed for along time after that--I went into a deep depression for many years, running from a life I did not want to owe up to....Something happended though, one day I woke up realizing I wasn't dead yet--When I was first told I was positive I had 2-5 years, then told 5-7 years, then 10 -15 years, and now almost 20 plus years later--those in my early days of being told didn't survive--don't know why I did either? I am not running from it any more--I will be honest, I will never totally accept it, but that is how I survive-not the same for all--I am so glad you came here, we welcome you and we all have different experiences, but at the TRIBE, you feel like finally  there is a place where you can be stigma or shame, just you...peace, jen


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May 4, 2013, 11:07 am

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From: plusone
May 4, 2013, 5:23 am

Hope to see more blogs over the years. Simply knowing someone other than you knows what you are experiencing does tend to take the load of a little. As far as milk goes I never got the point why adult humans would take a fuild designed for a differernt mammal. Call mental lactose intorerance! Shortly after I went on meds I had a bout of anemia. I always suffered low BP and have had cold hands and feet since forever. My doctors had me on all sorts of iron boosting medication and said my bone marrow as not up to spec. She blamed it not so much on drugs but the virus & oppotunistics as well as stress. You have me wondering on calcium suppliments could aid some of my issues. Thanks for the post.


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