Clearer
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By:
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MarcAnthony
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Mood:
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Peaceful
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Date:
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Dec 07, 2012
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Music:
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None
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Since
I've
"let
go"
of
my
past,
I've
been
seeing
things
clearer.
One
of
those
things
is
alcohol.
I
no
longer
feel
I
need
it
for
company.
For
years,I
used
to
drink
a
lot
~
every
weekend
and
especially
this
time
of
year.
I
would
always
nurse
several
beers
to
make
me
feel
less
lonely.
I
wanted
to
numb
the
pain
I
had
held
on
for
so
long.
After
finally
letting
go
of
the
resentment,
the
urge
to
drink
is
no
longer
there.
Another
thing
is
my
job.
I'm
not
happy
there
anymore.
For
months,
I've
had
a
nagging
sense
as
to
why
I
was
there.
The
negativity
in
me
kept
saying
I
was
"safe"
where
I
am
now.
I
don't
need
to
start
over.
I
don't
need
to
go
through
the
process
of
letting
any
supervisors
know
about
my
AIDS
status.
I
would
listen
to
the
negativity
and
continue
with
my
day.
Today,
as
I
sat
at
my
desk,
I
stopped
what
I
was
doing
and
this
time,
the
inner
voice
was
louder
~
"I'm
not
happy
here.
I
need
to
change."
I
don't
want
to
work
where
I
am
anymore.
After
six
years,
my
job
has
become
extremely
mundane
and
monotonous.
I'm
bored
and
I
feel
stuck...so
tomorrow,
I'm
going
to
the
Community
College
to
pick
up
the
schedule
to
see
what
classes
interest
me.
I'm
going
to
seriously
apply
myself
to
begin
looking
for
another
job.
Update
my
resume
to
begin
sending
them
out.
I
feel
a
change
in
me.
There's
a
part
of
my
life
which
I
am
finally
feeling
good
about
but
now,it's
also
time
I
allow
myself
to
listen
to
my
little
voice
telling
me
to
get
out.
Get
out
of
what
is
making
me
unhappy
and
do
what
I
want
to
be
happy
~
completely
and
fully
happy.
Choices
are
up
to
me.
I'm
choosing
to
do
something
about
it.
I
choosing
a
new
course
in
my
life.
I
choose....me.
Peace
All.
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Great
choice
!!!
It
is
all
about
you
!!
Job
satisfaction
important
..
staying
with
the
devil
you
know
safe
yes
..But
no
excitement
and
challenge
involved 
